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A Zero-Book Balance: Part 1

January 16th, 2007 — 3:56pm

Everyone’s always giving me books. And if they’re not, they’re recommending them to me.

Have you read ‘The Bridge of San Luis Rey’? No, I reply. You Must! It’s a classic. What about ‘The Grapes of Wrath’? No, it’s on my bookshelf, though. Does that count? Of course not! It’s Steinbeck’s finest work, you must read it. But I’ve seen the movie, does that count?

An icy glare is my response.

In time, I’ve developed a book problem. Not a problem with books, the object; no other set of instruments can produce such incredible music. Nor to I have problems with books, the material; even if I know the plot (and I am the most awful of reader, the plot kind: one who takes little pleasure in the little details, I could care less if Mme. Bovary’s shirt is red or polka-dot green) I have still read a book, boring as it was.

My problem is one not with books, I suppose, but with the physical world: a lack of space and a plethora of fiction. But if I loathe one thing, it is not finishing a book: no matter how droll, how dreary, how damnably awful, there is nothing more satisfying than the final close of the back cover. (I have, of course, on occasion, skipped a few pages here and there, like watching an awful movie on fast-forward)

I am seeking resolution; I crave empty shelves. Laid before me is a stack of some thirty books, the bulk of which have plagued me from afar, on shelves here in Florida while I ponder about them in bookstores and libraries in Massachusetts. Have I read ‘The Death of Vishnu’? Do I own it at home? No more will these books take up space. I’m going to read them, one by one, over the semester, and then donate them somewhere.

There is nothing more embarrassing than having not read a book everyone else has read. I know ‘Huck Finn’ is required for damn near every school in every state, but we didn’t read it, ok? And there’s nothing worse than having someone say “I hated book so-and-so” just as you’re about to start reading it. So I’m not telling which ones they are, at least not now. Maybe when I finish a few, I’ll make a small note of it. The goal is to finish all of these, these 30 damnable books, by the end of the semester. It’s not going to be easy: that’s roughly a book and a half a week at a place where time is already at a premium. But, I’m going to view this as an extra 4 credits: 12 hours a week spent doing something interesting and engaging for myself, not for a professor. Live long learning at its best, no?

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Sunday CCO Sunday

December 17th, 2006 — 1:17pm

If you’re an Oliner, and you missed out on the fun that is today’s CCO meeting, you’re in luck! Running commentary of the CCO meeting, brought to you by the utter torment of every CCO meeting I’ve been to in the past. If you’re a super masochist, feel free to read along in real time.

11:17 AM – I check the morning e-mail and get the obligatory CCO meeting reminder, with current budget overage projections. We’re about $8K over, an extraordinarily high amount, even with Olin’s fascination with spending more than its got. I scan the list of clubs asking for money. One club is asking for $5K without any descriptive information for what it will be spent for. This is a super no-no. The club president might just be dicking around with us, but if it’s an actual request, we’ve got to hear why. $5000 for comic books might be a stretch.

11:55 AM – Couldn’t even escape the CCO meeting horrors at the breakfast table. The big clubs everyone’s looking to cut include ROC (Republicans of Olin College), Open (Olin’s GLBT group) and the aforementioned comic book club. Overall those clubs count for about a fourth of the overall spending. A few clubs are on the opposite end and ask for no money. Guess which ones we like more.

11:59 AM – The rooms slowly filling up. A few last-minute breakfast table discussions have allowed some people to opt out. CCO meetings are done on a per-club basis, so if you can convince someone to represent your club, you can skip out and watch the early games. Of course, you run the risk of not having reasons for your club to take the money, so you might lose half your budget. Hope that’s some good football.

12:00 PM – This is my fifth CCO meeting, so I’m more or less an old pro at this. A few other people in the room have been to as many as me, but I think no one’s been to more. Mark, one of my suitemates, is sitting in on his first, representing the Disc Club. The representatives for ROC and Open have arrived, but Zach, representing the Comic Book Club hasn’t shown up yet. If he doesn’t arrive, his $5000 budget will be in jeopardy

12:03 PM – Light the tires, kick the fires, this meetings been called to order! Angela hands out a voting stick for each club; we’ll use this to vote on motions on the floor. I’m anxious to get started so we can get cutting!

12:05 PM – Best lines of dialogue: “We have a deficit of a little ove….I’d like to make a motion to cut comic book club. Ok… all in favor?” Everyone raises their hands. The current deficit is about $3500. ROC also cuts their budget by about a thousand dollars, returning some money back to the pool.

12:09 PM - We start going through club by club, deciding how relevant each club’s line items are in comparison to the mission of the club.

12:12 PM – “What is a cheese outing?” If you’re wondering, it’s an outing to a local cheese farm subsidized in the spring. Current deficit is still at $3500.

12:14 PM – We’re down to the Christian Club, and there’s a little bit of confusion, but things get resolved rather quickly. Mark talks briefly about the Disc club, but his budget escapes cutting.

12:20 PM – As people get bogged down in the line items for Farmers United, I go check out some test-strategy techniques for the GRE I’m taking tomorrow. I’m not looking forward to it, to say the least. I’m fairly certain I can take the math portion without trouble, but the verbal and written might be a hassle. It’s remembering things like verisimilitude that will be the death of me.

12:23 PM – “What are 26 units of white gas?” “Actually, it’s 26 gallons.” “Oh.” A math error gives us our first real cut, about $38 dollars, or 1%. God, we’re going to be here a long, long time.

12:30 PM – We cut about a hundred dollars from FOTA since we’re unsure what the money will be used for. I hate to see new clubs and new club presidents get up, are clearly passionate about their clubs mission, and get shot down by the group. Friendly Fire’s new president is requesting just under $300, not a high amount, but the club didn’t spend much during the first semester, so the president will get some flack.

12:36 PM – Still on the Friendly Fire club. Another rookie mistake: not checking out the internet before hand. Friendly fire’s big request was for network cables at about $120. A quick web search shows that $55 would do the job just as well. Guess who wins?

12:43 PM – Ali, the SAC chair, comes and chats with us about doing more co-sponsored events. It’s a refreshing break from the hassle of budget cutting.

12:45 PM – If you’re fretting that I’ll never get out of this meeting, don’t worry. At some point, clubs will start cutting their budgets by small amounts, which will get us closer to the goal. A few straggling club presidents in clubs with reputations for responsible spending show up a little late and we go back to discuss their clubs. Due to a different math error, we’re still hovering around the high $3k mark.

12:52 PM – We’ve down to Game Club. I get ready to pull up the NFL scores. With the Bucs far out of the running for everything except the 1st pick sweepstakes, I can’t decide which team I’m going to cheer for in the playoffs. Is this the year no one wins it? Most teams, besides San Diego, looked awful last week, with the Pats and Colts getting rocked by the AFC teams from Florida. I’ll go out on a limb here and pick the Saints to face the Chargers in Glendale. (Speaking of which, this is one of those years where people in Arizona get to see great football, with three high-profile games lined up: The Fiesta Bowl, The BCS National Chapionship Game, and the Super Bowl. Kinda makes up for the Sun Devils and Cardnials, no?)

12:59 PM – We’re painfully chugging along as clubs continue to knock of $50 and $100 from clubs. At this rate, I’ll be out of here just in time to take my GRE tomorrow.

1:00 PM – Ahh, the meat club. While people argue about whether meat is a good value, I’ll plug ecto, a really great blogging interface. The interface is similar to Outlook, so it feels similar to writing an e-mail to the world! I was pleased to find that it kept track of the word count in the status bar at the bottom. By the way, if you’re keeping track, we just went over 1100 words.

1:05 PM – It’s like pain, constant constant pain. We’re still $3700 over. But we’ve just cut some serious cash from Midnight Riders,

1:11 PM – “I can just donate some PVC adhesive. I mean, my dad’s a plumber.” This is why I love Olin meetings.

1:12 PM – Hmm, my arm’s falling asleep. This could make blogging difficult.

1:15 PM – Let the games begin. We’re on ODP, an example of one of those clubs where the estimates seem impossibly high. While I appreciate the mission of the club, it seems like such a money sink. We cut about $200. Open, the club asking for the most on the list, is about 7 away. My club is over 20. Sigh.

1:20 PM – Back to the GRE. Nebulousness? Nebularity? Nebulosity? Surprisingly, only two of those are right, even though all three pass the squiggly word test in ecto.

1:37 PM – Nitpicking discussions. We’ve made it about three more clubs on the list. I’m going to cry. I want someone to just wrap their tie around their head and yell “Follow me, follow me to freedom!”

1:41 PM – Ahh, crap. A firefox crash. I really want a new computer, as this one’s lasted me all four years. Once I graduate, I think that will be the new purchase for me. Of course, thanks to Olin’s wonderful IT department, this compy has been redone a few times in terms of software (I’m on my fourth install of windows.) My contributions to the CCO meeting have dwindled down, but after OTASA and OWW (Olin Taiwanese-American Student Association and Olin Weekend Warriors, a nerf gun club) Open is on the board, which will be much fun.

1:45 PM – Just one club away now. I’m getting out the helmet.

1:46 PM – So, here’s the deal with Open. I respect the mission of the club, the people involved, the organization as a whole. But in general, they’re a really bitchy club to work with during the CCO meeting. They’ve almost always got the largest budget for things I’m just not sure we should be spending student money on. I realize this is the 21st century, but I just don’t think student money should pay for a drag show. I’m sometimes in the minority on this, but with the budget still over $2600, people will look hard at the club.

1:47 PM – Open’s on the board. Dogs and cats living together, mass hysteria.

1:50 PM – So far, it’s not so bad. Open’s willingly cut about $350 from the budget, mostly for things like prizes and the performer. The club budget is at about $1750.

1:57 PM – Nearing the two hour mark, and we still haven’t gone through the entire list yet. Sigh

2:03 PM – The group from Open is down about a third from what they asked for. We move on.

2:05 PM – Some people want a coffee break. Others want to finish the first pass. Angela decides that we’ll take a break after the first pass. So it is decided.

2:07 PM – Can I mention how much I love del.icio.us? On my main blog, links are now provided daily by the integrated extension in firefox? It’d be great if i could format the output to the XML-RPC (geek for remote posting) so that it didn’t display tags and put a little bit more into the formatting of the content. Also, I need to remember to use proper English in description.

2:10 PM – Blog gets the squiggly line of death in ecto. I’m just saying… Then again, ecto gets the squiggly line of death as well.

2:12 PM – We’re down to Rock Climbing Club, and there are about seven clubs left on the list. Since Open, we haven’t spent much time on each individual club.

2:15 PM – With the same 2+ hours in the meeting, I could have: ironed my shirt, watched a movie, or slept. Maybe I shouldn’t think about what else I could be doing with the time.

2:20 PM – 4 clubs until I’m up on the board for trivial. I don’t anticipate any real challenges. I spent all my money last semester, I’d like to go to three tournaments in the spring, but I’ll knock it down to two to appease everyone.

2:22 PM – Speaking of movies, I haven’t seen any good ones lately: I’ve been super busy with finishing up the semester. I think the three that I’ve probably missed that I would have liked to see are: Casino Royale, For Your Consideration, and Letters from Iwo Jima, the National Board of Review’s top movie of 2006

2:31 PM – Trivial is still two clubs away. I’m reading to figure out if Pulp Fiction had a title screen. I think so, but it’s not on the definitive movie title list. Maybe I’m not seeing it.

2:33 PM – Taboo, the club on the board, is requesting $75 for a “Fetish Fair”. While I don’t like the title, it’s cheap enough to fly under the radar.

2:34 PM – That was fast. Trivial and Tennis Club both quickly escape the wrath of the group. I think people really want that break, but we have to get through Yearbook first.

2:35 PM - Ahh, Yearbook. It’s a club that over time has become less annoying at CCO. At my first few CCO meetings, Yearbook needed a lot to get going. But lately, as they’ve become self-sufficient, things have been going much better.

2:36 PM -Break! You know you’re excited. Use the next ten minutes to think about things. Or eat ice cream. That’s what I did.

2:48 PM – Aaand, we’re back. We’re $1500 over right now, or about halfway to the goal. As we approach the end of the third hour, we might be done by dinner time. A more realistic goal is 3:30. Let the second round of cuts begin. We knock off antigravity club’s (yes, such a thing exists) stilts/powerisers for $350.

2:52 PM – Off-topic, I’m pretty excited to be going home next Wednesday. It’s going to be great being home, relaxing, and just not burning the candle from both ends.

2:57 PM – There’s a lot of confusion as to the different kinds of CORe money: pretty much it breaks down as CCO money and New Initiatives.

3:00 PM - It’s that time of the meeting! Everyone comes together to make the last cuts. A big thanks to SAC and the clubs who cut down at the end. Trivial and Disc Club both gave up about $150 each to keep it civil. I’m outta here. Rock out Olin!

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A light…

December 7th, 2006 — 2:28am

Why is it that everything I write lately feels so foreign, the click-clacks under my fingers out of place? I am restless; I cannot sleep, the product of a late nap and caffeine. I pluck out the words from the darkness. To claim I have had little to write about would be a lie: I am, at heart, a writer still, now and always. My life streams from pens and keyboards. To claim I have had little time to write is also a lie, though striking closer to the truth. I’ve been bee-busy since October. But, I feel the biggest reason I haven’t written is just how unsure I am of sharing things.

One of the most fascinating things about reading a blog is the glimpse into other peoples lives. In the blogosphere, the human condition unfolds, decoded from the ever-flowing bitstream. The kids were a handful today…I’m so frustrated with my boss…omg, does he liek me?….

There is a great balance in the world of the blog. At once, everyone and no one is your reader, your friend, your crying-shoulder, your advice-giver. The great thrills I’ve had in writing have been the strange and random readers who step into the light, ever so briefly, and weigh in on the humdrum I write. But, I know that for every reader that steps forward, 10? 100? stay in the shadows, reading.

I don’t think this makes me paranoid. I’m merely calculating that there exist roughly 1259 people out there who have read my blog and think they know me. I wonder how many of them know me, in the same sense I know myself. What have they learned from my writings? What’s the impression my written voice projects out there into the universe?

What I’m trying to say is, I don’t think I want to write about myself anymore. This flies in the face of what I’ve been taught: write about what you know best. The thing I know the best is myself. And while introspection is good, the most important part of introspection is the personal nature, the privacy of self-learning.

I apologize for the ramble. Again, it’s late. If you feel like you need to weigh in on this, give my self-esteem a boost and leave a positive but honest comment about me. Anything will do. (After all, I’m done writing about me, that doesn’t mean you can’t)

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Gosh….

August 7th, 2006 — 4:13pm

Technology was spelled wrong this entire time. I just realized it. A loser am I. I guess that shows how many attentive people visit my site. What a contretemps.

Oh, and I’m 21 now. Hooray. Thanks to the many who sent birthday wishes!

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Nostalgia

July 25th, 2006 — 10:45am

As a few of you might know, I’ve been on a Disney kick lately, listening to music from around the theme parks in Florida. Yes, such things exist. Call it what you want (weird, sappy, an attempt at seeking escape to a dreamworld of fantasy that’s enabling me to rationalize working in a cubicle) but for me, this is the music I more or less grew up on.

Living in Florida has a few perks, hurricanes, poor drivers, and poorer voters be damned. One of them is great discounts at theme parks. Another is proximity to aforementioned parks. I’d estimate that my family probably went to Disney World somewhere between 30-40 times between first grade (1991) and 2001. Throw in another 8-10 times for school related stuff, and maybe another handful of times post 9/11, and I would say it’s not unrealistic to guess I’ve been to Disney World on the order of 50-60 times.

That may seem like a lot, but you have to remember a few things. That’s 50-60 over the course of a decade and a half, which is only 3-4 times a year. And none of those trips was longer than four or five days, and most were a pattern like this: leave after school Friday afternoon, hit Epcot Friday night, go to Magic Kingdom Saturday, go to MGM Sunday Morning, and leave no later than Two PM Sunday afternoon. (That’s essentially the perfect 3 park schedule by the way.)

Still, I agree, that’s a tremendous amount of Disney for one kid to ingest, regardless of timespan length. And when you consider my family also owned every Disney animated movie (except Pete’s Dragon) in their gigantic clamshell cases, owned Disney stuffed characters, read books about those characters, and so on, you see that we’ve got a pretty Disnified house.

I am lucky to know that this same time was a sort of golden age for theme parks, especially Disney World. The growth that the Orlando resort has experienced in my lifetime is astounding: adding two new theme parks, opening a dozen hotels, adding shopping centers, attractions, water parks. I know that this unparalleled expansion was offset by the loss of attractions I loved. I realize that change is, for the most part, good.

Why? That’s an excellent question. Part of it was the escape that WDW provided then (and we’ll get to why it doesn’t now in a second). Part of it was the physical location: just 90 minutes up I-4 from my house. Part of it was the cost, which didn’t hurt so badly back then. But I think most of it was my grandfather (my mom will inevitably read and correct this if I’m wrong) also liked Disney and took his family often. There’s a whole back story here that involves this company, my grandfather, the opening of Space Mountain, and the oil crisis of the 70s. I might write that book some day.

I know there’s a term for people further down the scale than me: DisneyFreak. I know there are people who travel to all eleven theme parks around the world, post trivia online, compare rides in Anaheim and Orlando. I know that I am not quite one of these people: I only read the trivia posted online.

But I also know that it doesn’t take a rocket scientist (or anyone from Tomorrowland) to figure out that Disney World has lost its way. I’m listening to this music from dismantled attractions now sold on eBay, stories once told in the half-light that will never entertain again.

Maybe the magic is gone for me: maybe time, that evil villian, has robbed me of my innocence. But when I listen to the in-ride audio and music (and yes, such things are easily had online) only some of what I feel is my own personal nostalgia: the memories of trips past. The other part of what I feel is confusion, from an engineering and business perspective, wondering why Disney’s made some of the decisions they have, especially at the parks.

Of course, this problem is multi-faceted. Universal, just up I-4 even farther, is directly competing for the same market. The overall travel market suffered, perhaps irrecoverably, after 9/11. Gas prices are soaring. But my personal opinion is people will still pay, and pay handsomely, for happiness, for peace of mind and pieces of future nostalgia. People will always pay if you can simultaneously take their cares away and give them happy memories at the same time. Why else would movies be so popular?

Disney’s problems lie somewhere else then, beyond competition, rising costs and prices. I think the Disney problem is they’re just not as good as they used to be at manufacturing the product. I know that it’s always been about making money from the Disney side, but I feel like what they’re selling is no longer what it once was. The Disney empire has gotten so large and expansive, WDW has simply become a grand Disney store: an outdoor arena for advertising and selling.

Back in my high school days, when I was involved in television production, we had a oft-repeated motto: “All we do here is tell stories. Your success is determined by how well you share them.” So too, should this be the motto of the company founded by Walt Disney.

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Search Phrases

June 21st, 2006 — 9:22am

Hey Brian, is there something we should know about?

(Screen grab of top search phrases to philonoist.net for June so far)

No. I can’t explain Rachel Weisz measurements either.

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In Washington

June 8th, 2006 — 9:12am

I’ve been in DC for about a two and a half weeks now, and have shamefully not written anything about it. Part of this is I have a huge backlog of photos that I’ve been too lazy to put up in the forthcoming gallery, and the other part of the problem is my laptop hard drive has died, causing withdrawl-like symptoms as the best damn IT department in the world gets me a new one Big ups to Al Gore, and his movie An Inconvenient Truth, hands down the best documentary since Bowling for Columbine. (And yes, I saw Fahrenheit…) The premise is simple: take the most popular vice president in history, his passion for a global issue that doesn’t involve terrorism, Iraq, or gay marriage, and his Apple Keynote presentation on aforementioned global issue (by the way, the presentation is the second-star of the show. Tufte would be proud, I think.) An Inconvenient Truth should be required viewing for anyone who has ever heard the words “global warming”.

For those who’d like to know a little more about me, I’m working at StreamSage, a subsidary of Comcast on javascript-enabled webcrawling. It’s a pretty-lax place to work, but still dealing with cubicles and the like. I have to say, it’s a pretty jarring transition from free-formed projects at Olin to the rigidity of here, and from what i’ve heard here is pretty far from more button-down places. Oy. I fear we Oliners have been corrupted.

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Groan….

May 8th, 2006 — 9:56pm

Just found out that I’ve been using the wrong units of measurements for my VLSI project. On a frustrated-o-meter, this ranks about a ten.

Here’s the other things I have to do (by Friday):

  • VLSI: Import into padframe, write up why I can’t multiply by 0.3, cry.
  • Creative Writing: Revise my creative nonfiction. (Wednesday, 7 PM)
  • FOCS: Study, take final. (Actually, this is Tuesday)
  • SigSys: Study, take final.
I’ve also got to pack my stuff this weekend, since I’m going to be gone Wed-Sun (can’t say why yet though). Then it’s back here for Graduation, then to Washington DC where I will hopefully have enough time to post more than once a month.

All in all, it’s been a bueno semester.


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Mentos and Snow

February 18th, 2006 — 4:55pm

Pictures now from MentosFest 2006. A few of us decided to play out the increasingly well-known story of adding a roll of mentos to some diet coke. Also a good test of Lightbox JS. Click Links to Open Pictures.

I didn’t actually get a good shot of, you know, the actual explosion, but I think these photos prove a few things.

1) It was really damn cold. 2) Once you try this, you really shouldn’t drink the leftovers. You’ll feel bad. 3) This was infinitely cooler than the episode of Grey’s Anatomy that was on at the same time.

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Takin’ A Break….

February 18th, 2006 — 2:46pm

I’m not trying to make excuses, but since I’ve been back:

Jan 28th: Quiz Bowl at BU Feb 4: Bowling Club Outing Feb 11: Hockey Game

All of which occured on Saturdays, which is when I’d most like to post. During the week, I’m perpetually busy, but it’s a good kind of busy. Proving that Olin is not a meritocracy, I’m captain of “Franklin’s Finest”, an Intramural team still looking for it’s first win. Courses are good. Life is good. But I’m so busy, I have a tough time fitting in things I enjoy. I’m not unhappy with what I have right now: but I feel incomplete without the requisite weekly movie or book. I also don’t have time for blogging.

As everyone else mentioned when it was relevant, Cory Doctorow (another link for Cory from Olin, hooray!) was here last Thursday. And as Brian mentioned, Cory read Brian’s brief post on the EFF before talking to us.

All I could think about during that talk was, Damn. Cory Doctorow read Brian’s blog! I could kill Brian with jealousy rays. Admit it: it’s pretty impressive, unless I’m missing something. But, here’s the thing. I’m betting a lot more people read Brian’s or Sean’s or other people’s blogs than mine. Which is cool, since they actually talk about interesting things.

I think the most frustrating thing about blogging for me personally is finding the things I’d like to talk about. I’ve noted this about 50 times now, but it keeps rearing its ugly head. The things I enjoy take time to analyze and discuss. Take movies, for example. I have to watch the movie, think of something more witty and robust than a typical IMDb post, and then write it. It’s probably not fair to keep bringing him up, but Brian just has to read an Office UI blog or two and post thoughts.

Let me be clear: I’m definitely not saying Brian Shih is a hack writer. What I’m trying to say is that it seems to me Brian has an infinitely easier path to audiences because his interesting topic is more appealing and more suitable to blogging.

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